How do I handle this? Now I just sit down and write a list of things I need to do. I write down everything that comes to mind no matter how off the wall it is.
Grocery store: check
clean the bathroom: check
repaint all the woodwork in the house today: if I have time
Sometimes if I can get an early enough run in the list will be in my mind, but it seems clearer and more doable. That's the beauty of running for me. I can think about anything, but all my chores don't seem so daunting.
This hasn't always been the case for me. I used to be paralyzed by the mounting chores and everyday life things that needed to be done I wouldn't even know where to start. So I wouldn't do anything. Then I would be mad and frustrated even more because I wasn't accomplishing anything. It was a vicious cycle. When I worked it was even worse because I always wanted to please everyone at my job and not make mistakes that someone would have to clean up that I would get stressed and exhausted and eventually bring on a relapse. Then I would miss work and people would have to cover my shifts and clean up what I left. By the time I got home from work I couldn't function like the wife and mom I wanted to be.
|My list notebook|
Today will be a list day for me.
update blog: check